Friday, December 11, 2015

Irresistible Me - Let's Talk Hair

Happy Friday everybody! This is the best part of the week where worries go out the window and pants are optional. Unless, like me, you are a college student and sleep is irrelevant because finals are approaching. In which case, I'm mourning for you, too.

I have been dying to post about this since I received an email from Irresistible Me months ago, asking if I would review their product. Here's the set up, I have never owned nor colored hair extensions ever in my 20 years of existence (Except for that one time when I was 6 and stole all of Barbie's colored hair clip-ins). In the past I have been known to bag on people for not just growing out their hair instead of purchasing extensions. The land of hypocrisy has now welcomed me with open arms and it has never felt sweeter.  I have moderate length hair past my shoulder blades. It may seem like I have decent volume at times, but I assure you my locks are as thin as a Victoria's Secret model. When Irresistible Me gave me the opportunity to choose any style I wanted from their site, I was bounding with joy. In fact, the day before I was already in the process of researching different brands of extensions. It's like they read my mind, people!

Let's get down to the product. This is what arrived at my door just days after placing an order. Keep in mind that I colored them myself, but you get the idea.  There were rubber banded together and wrapped neatly in a hair net. I chose the 24"/200g Royal Platinum Blonde (#613) hair extensions, which includes 10 pieces and, three extra clips incase one falls off. The specifics can be found on their site I colored them with Bleach London's Semi-permanent hair color Awkward peach, which can be bought at  There was so much hair that I didn't even bother coloring it all.   
The extensions are made of 100% Human Indian Remy hair.  Cosmetology translation: they are damn good quality. You could drop $60 on eBay for a stringy pair of extensions, but they are not going to last as long, or give you the same "umfyour scalp needs. They supply you with two sample strands to play with instead of opening the real product. That way if for whatever reason you don't like what you receive you can return them, full refund. Another plus is that the extensions have a weft of different darker/lighter strands that give the color a more realistic depth, something you don't see in a cheaper product.
Honesty is my policy! While I did not pay for the product I am still not being paid to advertise these on my blog. This is not a sponsored post. That being said, here are some issues I had with the product. Initially when I opened the package I was terrified, because I have never been entrusted with a product of this value and I didn't want to mess them up while coloring them. The original shade I received was a much warmer blonde than I anticipated. I was hoping they would be whiter, but they were more of a natural blonde.  This was the lightest shade they offered, so I opted for it. Unfortunately, my hair is as platinum as they come and these were just not that pastel friendly. I chose to color them a peach to cover the brassy tones.  If I were to do any other scheme I would have had to bleach bath them.  I had to buy multiple shades of hair color to make my hair match the extensions, after I had already colored them to match my hair. Basically it was easier to change the color of my hair than the extension, since I can't bleach them myself.  While tedious and time consuming, I love the coral color and it was such a good learning experience.
 While coloring these some of the paint chipped off a few of the clips. This doesn't bother me since the clips disappear once they are on my head, but it might others. Even with these flaws I would still recommend the product. My advice to Irresistible Me would be to expand their color selection. It would help to have more real customer photo examples as well as professional photos of the product being used on the site to make it easier for the customer to choose. Another great accessory to include would be a hanger for the extensions to keep them from tangling. I made a makeshift one with a clothing hanger and string, but I would still be a nice plus.  Once I'm no longer a starving college kid, I will probably return to the site to buy the Volume Vixen hair extensions. Even with the price tag they really are that good. I think it is very important to invest in staple pieces, hair included. Personally, the thick quality of the extensions sells it for me. I literally only used half the pieces I received and it is still sufficient. I think that speaks for itself.  They are softer than my natural hair, and they blend well.  Trying to distinguish my hair from the extensions is as impossible as finding every item in an entire I Spy book. I get nervous when companies send me products to review, but I couldn't have been more happy with the results, even with the extra effort.  Irresistible Me sells more than just extensions.  If you are interested check them out.
Use the IrresistibleMaddi coupon code at check out for 10% off any purchase. 

Let me know what you think of my Rapunzel hair in the comments below!  I'd love to know what you think.  Like and Share this if you thought it was helpful, I appreciate it more than you know. Don't forget to give the weekend a little hell for me. I'll be inside studying *sob*. 

Lots O' Love,

Half Zip Shirt - Michael Kors 
PU Zip Fly Shorts - Dolls Kill
Sequin Fanny Pack - Patricia Field
Tattoo Choker - eBay
Suede Choker - Craft Store 
Pom Key Chain - eBay
Extensions - Irresistible Me 

Saturday, November 21, 2015

I want to be you - Here's why

Photo Kalen Drullinger

I really struggle with harnessing my emotions.  After a good cry I decided that no one was going to understand my soggy frustration, because I don't even fully understand.  So here I am wrapped in blankets on the living room couch trying to find solace in a cup of coco. I guess my conclusion was that if I addressed my feelings on my blog, maybe even I would start to understand them.

I am not an open book.  I have spent most of my aloof life trying to find ways to sugarcoat it. I make friends easily, but I'm constantly driven to reinvent-myself with every relationship.  The older I become the harder it is for me to authenticate those connections.  The sad truth is that growing up is the loneliest part of living.  Very plainly, I feel disconnected.  I think that is a very common feeling among my peers. I have never been good at talking about my feelings, even my blog is impersonal, but I guess that will have to change.  I thought that most people just visited my blog to scroll through the airbrushed version of my life, but now I am hearing that this is untrue.  It amazes me that people like to read what I have to say.  This post is going to be long, and I apologize. Here is my issue.

When you scroll through Facebook and Instagram you are literally witnessing the most censored part of any given person's life.  Mine included.  A lot of us have friends and followers we have never met. When I first joined Facebook I had no idea that it would one day be the gateway to reaching out to so many younger girls, and even some boys.  If I was told four years ago that I would have people looking up to me I would have never believed them.  It's an unbelievable amount of pressure, and it sometimes leads to more sugarcoating. My life is only an eighth of what you see online.  Sometimes I'll post a picture and girls will comment nice things about my hair, or makeup, etc. They will call me goals, or even say they wish they were me.  Here's the thing, I know this is a compliment, but part of me dies every time someone says this.  Today it brought me to tears.

There were so many points in my life where I would have given anything to be anyone but me.  There are days where I couldn't leave bed because existing was too hard.  I know what you are thinking, how could her life possibly be that bad? It's not, and that is not the point. There is aways going to be someone out there who has it much worse, and I am at terms with who I am and my life challenges, but I wasn't always.

Recently I decided to defer a new treatment for Crohn's disease. I have talked about the status of my health on my blog briefly, but what you don't know is I have struggled with keeping my disease from consuming my life for almost a decade. I was treated with Prednisone, Pentasa, Budesonide, Mercaptopurine, Remicade, Humira, accompanied with other drugs. All of these failed me eventually.  With my illness it is difficult to stay on one treatment for more than a few years before it stops doing what it's prescribed to do.  With all of these drugs bring side effects, and I can't take back the years of chemical damage. This is why I decided to treat myself with natural alternatives, but it's not easy.  In fact, it's fucking hard.  Here I am back where I was about 7 years ago when they first subjected me to steroids, wishing I would wake up someone else. Sometimes thinking I had mutated into someone else, and so I ask myself why would anyone want to be me? 

The truth is, they don't.  They want to be the sugary me from Instagram. Even I do it sometimes.  We see beautiful girls online and it is so easy to be swept up in envy, but we don't see them at their darkest hour.  We don't see their acne breakouts, or bad hair days.  We don't see the things that really make them a person.  That is the issue with social media.  While I am flattered that anyone would want to be me, it also makes me a bit bitter.   There is not a single person on earth who doesn't struggle in life.  Just because others don't see these issues that scar us does not make them any easier to deal with.  It's all the same evil, we just have different demon.  Support each other instead of comparing problems. No one likes a shitting contest.

My life is full of pain and question, but if there is one thing I've learned it's that I can do Me better than anyone else. Colonoscopy? you got it, see you on the flip side! Weekly blood tests, I'm your girl. There isn't anything I can't handle. The same goes for you and all the girls who have not yet found the confidence to appreciate their existence.  Out of billions, there is not a single person on earth like you.  How incredible is that? If there is only one thing you can take away from this post, let it be this: Be the most authentic version of you, always.  Let your outside reflect your inside and vice versa. Learn how to express yourself, whether that be through words, art, fashion, sports, or anything under the sun.  Your challenges are your own, use them and learn from them.  Don't wish to be someone else, you can't know what they're going through. Make use of what you have. To anyone struggling with their health, you are not alone.  Not everyone will understand, and that's okay.  If you aren't comfortable with who you are, what sex you were born, what you look like, change. If you really want something you will find a way to materialize it, and it will all fall into compilation.  Finally, If you are dealing with something bad talk to someone.  Direct message me anytime.

Thank for listening, I feel much better now,

Wednesday, November 11, 2015

Not your mother's playlist

I think that even the most musically inept, like me, still have a soft spot for their favorite songs. I have one pitch, it's loud and only appreciated when drowned out by music. I never subscribed to any one genre of music. For that reason and for the longest time I thought I had terrible taste, seriously what do I know about music. Then a few weeks ago I was listening to some of my favs in the car with friends. They asked for my Soundcloud info and I was like, "..uh, ok, it's... uhm." *drops phone* I DON'T EVEN KNOW MY INFO. NOBODY ASKS ME THESE THINGS. Long story short, here are some of my Soundcloud favorites. I created a brand new playlist just for you!!!

 DISCLAIMER: My music is offensive to basically everyone. Oops? Blame society for making me angsty and rude af. Blame my parents. Just don't bug me, I'll literally do nothing about it.  If you don't like don't listen??

Sorry for that brief moment of negativity. I hope you like my Playlist, and follow me on Soundcloud!!! Comment or message me if you liked this post and want to see me create another playlist. Always, thanks for reading!


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Photography Kalen Drullinger 

Monday, October 12, 2015

Road Trip with Amy Lynn Photos Pt. 3 Modeling for Hello Holiday

If you are just joining, I might suggest scrolling down a few blog post updates, or you might not know what the hell is going on.  Oh, and welcome to blog de la Maddi! The amazing photographer/cotton candy head extraordinaire, Amy Lynn and I took a little trip the the East coast.  Our last spotlight stop on the long journey home was Navy Pier.  We stayed with model Jaida Bentley.  She is also a part time snap chat comedian, and pro chef.  You can follow her on Instagram @jaida_bentley.  Jaida guided us around the area of Chicago near her apartment.   Mother nature must have heard we were in town, naturally it poured!  We were soaked head to toe running from block to block during a flood watch. We ate at an heavy metal bar with kick ass burgers, and custom mac & cheese.  What can I say, we love food.  After braving the rain one more time, Amy and Jaida loaded up with vaseline to shot a sweaty apartment editorial shoot.  The next day we headed to Navy Pier to shoot for a cute little store, Hello Holiday.  Shop Here.  Hello Holiday asked me to model for their company, and Amy conveniently had the idea for a road trip themed lookbook.  We killed the shoot, but not without upsetting the man.  The security tried to put their foot down on our level of photography, but brats like us never listen.  You can see the Hello Holiday Summer State of Mind blog post Here or by clicking the link at the bottom of this post.  In a haze, we left the pier fully prepared to not leave the car for another few hours. We hadn't even made it out of the parking lot before our misfortune struck yet again. The lady in front of us stopped, got out of her car, walked over to us, and pulled a pair of shorts that decided to take a joy ride on the roof of our car.  Oops! My packing skills are mediocre at best.  Amy and I may have had our problems, but there was nothing we couldn't handle together.  After over 3000 miles in one week, we were running on empty, but we powered through for the love of bed.  Our own specifically. Even though almost nothing went according to plan, I still treasure my memories with Amy.  I wish her all the luck in the world in Chicago, hopefully we used up all of our bad juju in Chi Town the last time. Love you all, and as always thanks for reading (so patiently!)





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Monday, September 14, 2015

Road Trip with Amy Lynn Photos Pt.2 Brooklyn

   I desperately need to post more. Eek, I'm sorry, even though I say this every post.  You still love me right? All of these photos where taken in Brooklyn and other parts of New York.  We arranged to stay with model and ultra-babe Nicole Keimig.  Follow her on Instagram @nicolekeimig, she has the most inspiring life.  By the time Amy and I had reached her apartment we were falling apart at the seams.  What an incredible first impression I must have made meeting Nicole, being super sick and in feverish pain all night.  But she was such a sweetie and even made me tea.  We bonded over our love for The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho numerous times.  Our rehab the next morning, delicious vegan doughnuts. We seriously went a little crazy with all the food choices.  From classic New York style pizza to small bistro food and hand dipped ice cream bars, we wanted to experience it all. Or at least eat it all! We celebrated Amy's birthday with wine and the apartment's rooftop view of Manhattan.  It was a night of many firsts, and 100% living in the moment. The dinner party on the roof next to us simmered out, but not before the hosts jumped the rails to lounge around with us.  One of my favorite parts of traveling is getting to experience my destination like a local.  Hanging out with perfect strangers is such a great way to dive deep into the culture of city life. On the day of our departure poor Amy must have picked up my bad luck.  She was so ill, and everything seemed to be going in a million different directions than anticipated, but we made it though.  With heartfelt goodbyes we left Nicole and Brooklyn in search of the windy city.  But you won't get the down low on that today. Hope you enjoyed this post, comment below if you like my travel blogs more, or maybe less....either way I love your feedback.  Always, thanks for reading.


Monday, August 10, 2015

Road Trip with Amy Lynn Photos Pt. 1 Ophelia Shoot

My summer is coming to a close with school approaching in the Fall.  As it is my first year of what my parents refer to as "adulthood," I have been trying to save money and strive to succeed in my passions.  If you were wondering, those goals don't always go hand in hand. For the first time in my young life I understand what it means to be broke and happy; with a little financial assistance from the rents of course. I don't know where I'm going, but all of the signs along this path have pointed me in the direction of destinations I would have never dreamed of reaching.  TO ALL OF YOU WHO HAVE BEEN FOLLOWING MY PROGRESS THROUGH THE INTERNET, THANK YOU.  TO ANYONE WHO IS NEW, WELCOME TO THE HIGHEST POINT IN MY NONEXISTANT CAREER'S CLIMAX THUS FAR.  Alright, let me just say how thankful I am to Amy Lynn for taking me on as a friend, an intern, believing in my abilities, and inviting me on the most spontaneously radical trip.   When she asked me to go cross country with her in one week to shoot with Audrey and hang out with her best friend in NY for her birthday I immediately agreed.  We drove to New Jersey and Audrey was nice enough to let us stay with her for a few days while we crammed in as many photo shoots as we possible could.  I think it's safe to assume that we were all exhausted after shooting in the heat everyday.  I'm amazed at how much work both Amy and Audrey put into place, but what would work be worth without a little play?  We had amazing vegan food, met some of Audrey's closest friends and employees, and lounged around in her beautiful home between shoots. If you don't follow @Akitching we can't be friends.  If so then you will know that she exudes fantasy and fairytale in all of her work.  This is no exception to her personal life.  I have been following Audrey's career through the internet since the impressionable age of 15.  Since she was and is to this day my favorite role model, meeting her was an unbelievable experience. If not for her impact on my life I would have never dyed my hair in the first place. I only wish there was more time to ask her all the questions I was too shy to vocalize. Amy and I, although we had a great time, were relieved that the next stop on our trip would be 100% relax time.  Saying we experienced difficulty along the way is an understatement, but I'll save that story for another day.  I would hate to short you any of the details.  


Thanks for reading,

Amy Lynn Photography with Audrey Kitching